The Whole Shebang.

Here’s the thing…

I miss you guys. I have broken maaaaany promises to start losing weight again…to both you guys and myself. Well, I am VERY seriously contemplating getting back on weight watchers…but that is only if this one particular thing turns out to be false (I’m not going to post about it yet just because I have no idea whether it’s true or not).

I have been wayyyy too stressed lately and with the start of my new job (it’s a call center job so I’m sitting on my ass 8 hours a day…literally.), my soda intake has gone up dramatically. Don’t ask my WHY even when my mind tells me “Hey! You should be drinking WATER! Not this fake shit!”, I still go for the fake shit… I guess it’s just one of those things I’m going to have to learn to listen to my mind just like everything going on in my life right now. So here’s the deal. I CAN do this even if the one thing turns out to be true: I can write down everything that goes in my mouth (starting Tomorrow!) and cut back on the soda (right now, I’m consuming at LEAST 5 or 6 BOTTLES of soda a day.)

Here’s the good news: I am only at 265.something. That means that most/if not all of the weight I lost before has still stayed off (even despite being pregnant and having an 8 pound 2 oz baby! which I am quite proud of myself for!)…So. Here we go. Tracking and listening to my head. Now if only my head could figure out some other things right now…

Does anyone have any suggestions?

I am looking into buying a couple home workout dvds. Does anyone have any favorites? It just seems like that may be my best option right now in case I miss a workout. So any suggestions?

Personal victory: The number on the scale today said 254.5…and that was with jeans, shoes, a hoodie, and my regular shirt on. :)

searchingforbliss:

Great advice for any aspect of your life, whether it be your fitness routine, career, or how you spend your free time :)

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Not very proud of today…but at least there’s a number attached to it.

So I actually logged EVERYTHING that went into my mouth in that sparkpeople app I told you guy I downloaded. Considering my diet today, the numbers turned out better than I thought (at least TOTAL calorie-wise, maybe not so much in the break-down). I even managed to have the equivilent of 3 glasses of water and am hoping to squeeze another 3 in before bed. So here are the numbers:

Calories Eaten Today: 2244

Goal range of calories: 1750-2100

Calories burned today: 389

Planned calories to burn according to sparkpeople: 0

Now, here’s where my proudness of numbers goes away: the breakdown.

Carbs: 323

Carb Goal: 197-341

Fat: 83

Fat Goal:39-82

Protein: 72

Protein Goal: 60-184

Water intake: 3 glasses. And hopefully more before bed.

Okay, so the breakdown isn’t THAT bad, but me knowing what I’ve eaten today is what makes it bad. Let’s just say, the only thing you guys would be proud of me for today is telling myself at the grocery store that I wasn’t going to buy oatmeal raisin cookies because I don’t need them and they weren’t going to help me accomplish my goal, and me having those 3 glasses of water today. Other than that, not a lot of good stuff nutritionally happened. But tomorrow’s a new day and I’m hoping to cut back from the 3 sodas I had today (which is a major improvement already from my normal intake) to only 1 tomorrow. Also, less sweets. Those aren’t going to help me accomplish my goals either.

So, here’s to making tomorrow better.

Why does getting back to healthy have to be so hard???

So I know I said I’d be getting back to those goals I posted the other day…so far, very few, if any, have happened or even begun. I hate to say that, but don’t think I’ve forgotten the #1 rule of tumblr: be honest. I keep THINKING about reaching for that bottle of water instead of that soda, but then the thought “Oh, I’ll just grab it NEXT time I’m thirsty.” pops in my head. I keep THINKNIG about going for a walk, but then I always come up with some excuse…”There’s no one to watch the kids and it’s just so cold out!” “It’s too late…I’ll do it tomorrow.” I need to stop thinking next time and coming up with excuses. Sooner or later there won’t be a next time and I’ve got to realize that. I may not start on the exercise thing like I know I should right away, but I think if I focus on controlling my portions and starting to reduce my soda intake, then maybe things will be easier to stop making excuses about. I’m sure SOME of my lack of success has to do with the recent stress revolving around my now ex…yes, we broke up. No, it didn’t end well at all. I’m still debating whether to forgive him for the sake of our kids and because I do love him or to move on. So, even though I’m not proud of my food intake today…here it is:

Lunch:

2 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches

Dinner:

2 double cheeseburgers from McDonald’s

Some odd number of chicken nuggets with bbq sauce

2 small orders of french fries

Vanilla ice cream sandwich

I’m not even going to try and count how many sodas I’ve consumed today, but I know the number is at LEAST 3. So yeah. I’m not proud of that food log at ALL today for OBVIOUS reasons, but there it is. I’ll TRY and do better tomorrow…

Queue The Old “I’m gonna do this” post.

This time though, I’m not making any unrealistic promises again. I am not only focusing on weight loss, but myself as a whole; something I didn’t do when I had lost the previous weight. My life has gotten to the point where I need to make it better and I’ve already started doing so. You guys SHOULD be seeing much more from me in the days to follow. For now, here’s what I do best: a list. :)

• I am getting back in school. (Check. I signed up for online classes today. I start March 12th.)
• I am finding a job. (MAY have news on that front soon. Just hoping this is a good sign that maybe there is hope. No, I’m not saying what I’m talking about other than that it’s job-related.)
• I am getting my health back on track. (I even downloaded the sparkpeople.com app on my phone. Haven’t used it yet, but I downloaded it about a week ago. I honestly don’t know if I WILL use it…you guys know how crappy I am at writing down literally everything I put in my mouth! My kids need me to be around.)
• I am putting me first…after my kids of course. (I am not going to dwell on my relationship with my kids’ dad anymore. If he realizes what he’s losing, then fine…maybe something can be worked out. But right now, I don’t see that happening. All I see is me getting preoccupied with the status of “us” and getting wrapped up in it that I forget to do anything else besides try and fix our relationship. My kids deserve more than for me to not try and further myself.)

So there you have it. My list of my goals. GOALS. Not promises…especially since i have no scale right now. So as of right now, the only time I can actually weigh myself is when I go to donate plasma, which I have to eat no more than 2 hours before donating…so that should be interesting. But yeah. I am NOT saying I’m giving up soda COMPLETELY yet. I’m saying I’m going to try and cut back first. I bought myself a cool little water bottle that filters the water as you drink a couple weeks back, so it should be seeing some use. I am going to need a LOT of support…I can tell you that much already. Who else would I turn to but you guys because you guys are the best. :)

Ohhh, Fatty: Parent's that piss me off:

ohhfattygirl:

Today, after my workout I decided to drive to my local Ross Dress for Less Store because I wanted to see if they had any weight lifting gloves. (I got my old pair from there and I love them but they’re old and worn. I also didn’t find any so I will have to check elsewhere.)

As I am browsing the…

uote> After not having logged into this account in forever (i will admit it. I have been slacking.) I sign on to see this post. And let me just say how happy it made me that she actually had enough guts to open her mouth to that mom. I am honestly not sure I would have had the guts to do it. Now if only all of us had enough guts to do this EVERY TIME we seen something like this, the world would be a much better place!

Totally un-related to weight-loss. Moms please read!!!

So as you can tell, this post is going to have NOTHING to do with weight-loss. Obviously, I’m still pregnant and can’t lose weight…at least by TRYING. Here’s the deal:

On Tuesday morning, I am going in to have this baby by C-Section (Yes, it has been 39 weeks!!!! I can’t believe it myself). I had my first daughter by C-section…only difference is that with her, it was an emergency. It took me 2 or 3 weeks to be back to my (mostly) full-functioning self. I am scared to DEATH that this C-Section will be the same way: I could feel my doctor cutting (at least until they put me out), I couldn’t move for a full day after my daughter was born, my mom and the nurse were afraid to let me hold her because I was on morphine and was drifting in and out of sleep without even realizing it…it was a horror story to say the least. So I guess my question for you moms out there is what tips do you have for recovering from a C-Section? Even if you haven’t had a C-Section (lucky!!!), if you had another child running around when you had your second, how did you manage to take care of both children and still recover? Also, if you’ve had an emergency and a planned C-Section, which one was less painful for you?

Any advice is appreciated. :) I am just overly anxious for my baby to be here and nervous that I will have the same experience that I did with my first C-Section…

Oh and just to put a LITTLE weight-related thing in here: I am proud to say that I have gained literally only 5 pounds max this pregnancy…I didn’t actually start gaining until about my 5th or 6th month and even then, there were months that I lost. I think I owe a little of the minimal weight gain to having lost weight before I got pregnant again. :) I’ll be back to weight-loss soon…just be patient with me. :)